This Thanksgiving…….

 I took this pic on 18/11/09 on a roadtrip. I don’t ever remember being up in time for the sun rise. It was blinding but beautiful.

This thanksgiving marks my new year, yes my new year came earlier than everybody else’s. Am walking a path i’ve never walked before…..a path where am not walking alone, i thought the past weeks were going to be impossible to go through with my sanity intact but i did, WE did it….

I cut wobbly ends and it felt good, i set myself free…….i set you free and i got my ROCK.  You forgave me when i least expected it, I never knew the power the words “I forgive you” held until u sent that text….it felt like a weight was physically lifted off my shoulders.

This thanksgiving am thankful for new beginnings…..am thankful for forgiveness.

“Understand that no matter how many times you say you’re sorry it wont wash away all the pain and hurt you caused and the tears you made me cry”.

- ‘true_4eva’

Happy Thanksgiving everyone……..

How……..?

They say HATE is such a strong emotion, that’s where am at now….am about to hate this one person.

Right now am indifferent,…….wat am trying to say is not coming out right.

I used to wonder how it was possible for two people who were once in a relationship and had a child together could turn against each other and one party refusing the other to see a child…….or how two people who claimed the other was their everything could turn around stain the others name……..what happened to the LOVE.

How is it possible to claim something that u don’t ve evidence about…….am beat.

Its a very thin line between love and hate………that’s a fact.

 

“Sometimes our light goes out but is blown into flame by another human being. Each of us owes deepest thanks to those who have rekindled this light”.   Albert Schweitzer

“Say you are well, or all is well with you,
And God shall hear your words and make them true.”   ~Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Am posting after so long……

For Sleek since he’s the only one who missed me…

 and some more food just below…..

Hope y’all are doing great…..a fab weekend/week.

Its a year today……..

Its 1am 26th july 2009, still up coz am at work. Anyway a year ago today I lost a friend who was more than a friend she had become my sister in every sense of the word, her and the boyfriend died in a car accident and they left behind a daughter who survived the accident.        

They say time heals but I still haven’t healed a year later…….I remember their deaths like it was yesterday. I haven’t gotten the guts to delete their email addresses from my contacts and am not sure I’ll any time soon.

 Eden Elma is growing pretty fast she ll be 2yrs come Oct 2nd. Her auntie told me she’s a handful but then Fifi was a handful too so there’s no way Eden would ve escaped it.. 

   The good ol’ days. Fifi then with Eden. 

Fifi and Eric u are dearly missed by ur families and friends. May God grant ur souls eternal peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

” When you lose someone you love , you die too, and you wait around for your body to catch up”  John Scalzi

Katogo……..

The other day i was with a patient……..out of the blue he starts talking ” If its a girl name her Geraldine, and if its a boy call him Gerry”, I looked at him and asked wat he was goin on about, i know am not pregnant but for some reason he thought i was………He said wen u do get a baby those should be the names. Funny thing is both names are my sister’s babies names..

This lady i don’t know too well……..told me she really liked me. Now don’t get ur mind twisted, not that kind of liking. Another said i was pretty………in all honesty i would rather a woman compliments me than a man.

My 4year old nephew doesn’t like to be told wat to do coz he thinks he’s all man and knows wat to do. Told the mom she doesn’t have to shout, he could hear her clearly wonder if that’s another way of saying am not deaf.

He said if am done listening to wat he has to say or if am bored, i change subject. Never knew i did that, and if i do so i don’t think its intentional…………said if am asked something that i don’t want to answer immediately or can’t be bothered with i use “I DON’T KNOW” and sure enough i do.

I had 12 happy days of everything…………..

Am looking forward to a long weekend coz am wasted.

 

A good weekend to y’all…..mine just started.

True……………

Seeing as its been ages since i last posted, and i still can’t come up with a post i’ve decided to share this forward with y’all…………..y’all are good? Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two  1.     No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won’t make you cry.  2.     Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.  3.     A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.  4.     The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can’t have them.  5.      Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.  6.      To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.  7.      Don’t waste your time on a man/woman, who isn’t willing to waste their time on you.  8.      Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.  9.      Don’t cry because it is over, smile because it happened.  10.    There’s always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and  just be more careful about who you trust next time around.    11.    Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else     and expect them to know you. 12.   Don’t try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. 13.  Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you’ll still land among the stars.  14.     Never be afraid to try something new. Remember, amateurs built the ark; professionals built the Titanic! 15.     When you were born, everyone around you was smiling and you were crying. Live your life so that when you die, you’re smiling and everyone around you is crying.    REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.   Happiness is only in your heart so Love yourself and you will always have Peace

You come up with the title………….

What a girl wants…………. A teacher asked her class, “What do u want out of life?” A little girl in the bcak row raised her hand and said, “All i want out of life is four little animals” The teacher asked…….. ” Really, and what four little animals would that be sugar?” The little girl said, ” A mink on my back, a jaguar in the garage, a tiger in bed, and ofcourse, I’ll need a jackass to pay for all of it.” The teacher fainted……. That was a forward i thought i would share with y’all who think women don’t know what they want. Chicks……….. My nephew had a sleep over with three chicks……… he called home to be picked up coz he couldn’t make the chicks walk all the way to the house what kind of man would he be…? Anyway he was picked up, along with his chicks, got home made them comfortable, fixed them something to eat and drink……and yes when it was bedtime the four of them went to his bedroom………… he said he didn’t sleep enough coz they made noise throughout the night and the light was on all nyt. Am not talking about those chicks……….. I meant these chicks…..   He’s young to be having sleepovers with those other chicks.     And then there were the deers that crossed the road…………

Have a fab week………….

This girl…………….

This happened awhile ago………..

See am a very pleasant person, am the kind u can depend on regardless if I know u or not. I had this friend who was planning to to propose to his gal on her birthday, so he asked me to help him choose the gal’s RING. During my lunch break he picked me up and we went to the few places that i knew, I asked him how much he wanted to spend and he told me………….and yes I chose what I would have wanted to have, the stone was lil’ smaller than I would ve wanted mine to be……..

We chose the RING, he paid for it and when we were about to part, he handed me the RING asked me to bake his gal’s birthday cake and put it in there. The good friend I am, I did as i was asked and no i did not try on the RING when i got home. The birthday was on a friday had to rush home take a quick shower and deliver the cake at the hotel, it was a surprise party for her with a few of her pals that her man knew………

The man and me were the only ones who knew he was goin to propose. I managed to keep my mouth shut then she cut the cake and the RING box was in there, guy gets on one knee and proposes, she takes a min before she gives her answer and it was a YES

Fast forward………they start planning for the wedding am there for the 1st wedding meeting. The two of them had chosen a venue for their wedding, I think it was Okapi or something, the groom took me there for lunch, he asked for my opinion, told him it wouldn’t be a venue of my choice so he ended up changing the venue to International.

Fast fast forward…………..did I mention I was made Secretary in the wedding meetings….oh yes I was. The gal decided on her bday she didn’t like me much oba coz i knew abt the proposal and i made the cake I’ll never know. Towards the wedding day the bride to be passes out the wedding invites get this everyone on the committee got a card save for yours truely Apr9………..I asked the groom wat was up with her seeing as I had already worked my ass off for her wedding, the least she could have done is to give me the invite and pray I don’t show up………I let go, I was not about to make her dread marriage before she got there.

Day of the wedding am supposed to be in the city by 7am seeing as am responsible for the bridal car ofcourse she didn’t know I was in charge. I get there the car is nearly done and ready for the bride. We drive up to the salon she was at and out of kajanja I go inside to let her know that it was outside………..told her she looked lovely and wished her a fab day and went home to get ready.

I didn’t show up for the reception, oh no not because I wasn’t invited but because my cousin was getting introduced the same day….besides my friends had adviced me not to attend. My friend did not take it too well but the bride must have danced for joy once they called up the committee and I was not there………….

Thank you dinner for the committee……….. I made sure I went coz it was at their house………..am goin thru the album and there’s this studio photo of me in the album and i must admit it was a good shot. Funny thing i couldn’t remember how he had gotten it, but there it was…………..

Girl doesn’t like me and I don’t care to know why but she must be glad am out sight at the moment. Did I mention I always got to meetings a bit late so i could walk to the front………..ya i did.

Will probably one time ask what the beef is all about………why act so ignorant?

My kind of Katogo……..

The other day i woke up on the wrong side of my bed so i got out of bed and decided to go for a rather long walk. Left the house at 9am and walked to the trail which is an hour away from the house didn’t realise it was that far…..i get to the trail and 15mins into my trail walk two deers run from the bush and cross……….wished i had normzo’s phone to take the pictures………….the trail is 31/2 miles long. Am ready to turn back and head home but there are so many people on the trail and am thinkin to myself if they can do so can I…………..of the people i met on the trail there was this guy he must ve been in his 50s or 60s very tall went past me three tyms…………

I completed the trail and in total did 61/2 miles of walking in 2hrs but i called my niece to pick up from the start of the trail i wasn’t getting paid for walking…………

My nephew decided to give me a  shampoo something that usually takes me 30mins took an hour coz he kept on talking and playing with my hair styling it with the foam so i let him be………besides he was bored and wen he is, he gets really annoying so i saved the others by keeping him busy. He blow dryed it and wanted to flat iron it but i couldn’t let him do the last bit……….by the tym we were done it was nearly his bed tym.

So i activate my face book account once in awhile to see wats happening………..so this tym i opened and went thru my friends  profiles to see who had different pages, photos and all that. I got to one of  my friend’s profile pictures and there he was topless/shirtless…………hadn’t realised my mouth was open. Closed my mouth and went thru the pics 4 of them topless oh ya he’s been spending so much tym in the gym.

Why my mouth dropped is the fact that we’ve been friends for a long tym and i know him not to take photos. He dated one my friends and to get him to take the wallet size photos was hard. My galfriend was speechless she crawled under her desk…………if she was white no doubt she would turned a bright pink………..

In other news a friend is visiting soon……….and am excited.

Truth be told…….

I was tagged by  Be silent  then Mr. B2B…tagged me some more so here are truths about me or those things i know for sure about me……..she did 7 truths so i’ll do the same………..”The truth will set you free. But first, it will piss you off.” Gloria Steinem

1. Most times am judged by my looks (most tyms they are negative)……..but am far from wat people think. I don’t drink, smoke nor do any of the wild things people think wen they first meet me.

2. I never break up with boy-friends they always do the breaking up it makes more sense to me that way. I contribute just a lil’ bit to the break up…………if u tell me u don’t want to see me again i agree with you and i don’t ask any questions.

3. Little things or rather wat other people deem lil’ piss me off e.g sayin u ll call and u don’t call, saying u’ve ur ticket booked for the next month and u show up 3 months later. I get over it once i’ve told u off.

4. I love my space……..if i don’t want to talk let me be. My “ME” time is very important.

5. Am an extremely impatient person but am learning to be patient especially during this time.

6.  Am No 9 in the family there’s a number 10&11 but am treated like the last one. Everyone looks out for me i kinda like all the attention but at times i think they think am fragile.

7. I would rather stay indoors than go out to a club/DISCO, or bar.

7. Am scared of commitment………….am over coming this too some day.

I said 7 and in that case i’ve double 7s and Mr. B2B… said 10 so 3 more…….

8. I love me a light skinned man……….not lighter than me tho

9. My sisters and brothers and their children are my world.

10. I strongly believe in prayer.

May the following pliz take it away………..

Carsozy

DoomsDay

Scotchie

3TOC

Sleek

Peter Njenga

Thank you Be silent  and Mr. B2B… it was tough coming up with those truths.

“When a woman tells the truth she is creating the possibility for more truth around her.”  Adrienne Rich